Painting: Blue Buddha

Title: Blue Buddha
Materials: Acrylic on Textured Board
Prints on: Etsy

Every year around Christmas, my husband and I go to this wonderful little seaport town called Rockport. If you’re ever in Massachusetts, especially during the holidays, I highly recommend stopping here. There are tons of these adorable little stores and great restaurants. I’ll write a post just about how amazing this place is some other time, but for now I want to write about my inspiration for the piece above.

There is a particular store that I’m crazy over called Floating Lotus. It’s a store that sells a lot of Tibetan and Eastern items. I’ve bought quite a few things from there including a singing bowl and a meditation cushion. My husband sometimes gets me a piece of jewelry from there because all of the settings are incredibly unique. I feature some of these pieces on my Instagram. Every year, I try to save a little money to get myself something really special from there.

One year I decided to buy this blue Buddha. He’s not very tall, only about 4 or 5 inches high. He’s seated with his eyes closed in peaceful meditation. Now, I’m not Buddhist, but for me personally I feel like he would have been an extremely good therapist! I have a lot of Buddhist sayings that I like to sometimes read and think about throughout my day. He was my first statue purchase and the first to really start my Eastern Art collecting.

I was inspired by the blue of the stone, and the warm colors of my studio in contrast, so I decided to paint him. At this point in my painting career I was still learning how to work with Liquitex acrylics, and I was exploring the vibrancy that they naturally possess. I was also just beginning to learn about facial anatomy. My parents were both cartoonists, and by default I learned how to mimic their styles. This painting contains both the searching for my own artistic style along with that of my upbringing. While I no longer paint in this way, I still have the original hanging in my office right next to my art desk. It’s a calm reminder that things will change. My art style changes, where I live may change, but there is still peace in all of that. I hope it brings you the same peace it brings me.

If you are interested in purchasing a print of this, please visit my online store at: Etsy

10 Ways to Set Up for a Successful New Year

2016 sucked! I mean, I thought 2015 wasn’t so fun, but then 2016 happened. On New Years Eve: the recipe that my husband wanted to cook failed because of some heavy cream I had bought that morning magically curdled in the fridge; the Chinese food we ordered to replace it was so late in getting to our home that the rice was crunchy; and in the end we popped some champagne and went to bed around 10 disillusioned. It left me feeling rather hesitant about 2017. I also found I wasn’t alone. This morning the guy who took my Starbucks order told me that he didn’t celebrate at all.

Last year left me severely anxious and depressed due to events I’ll share in some future post, but it really caused me some actual fear for this coming year. Expectations are high- the thought of another rough year was almost enough for me to hide in my bed, except that wasn’t going to make things better. So I took some time to really think about and make a plan for 2017, and I’d love to share it with you.

1.) There is Always Hope

I went to see Rogue One recently with my husband. There was a line that one of the main characters said that really stuck with me which was “We have hope. Rebellions are built on hope”. I liked it because to me the big, scary, invisible monster was the new year…and I felt like something needed to change, I needed to rebel against my monsters. Hope is not ignoring the bad, but believing that perhaps it will improve, or that good things will find their way to you.

2016 left me feeling pretty hopeless, but that doesn’t mean 2017 is going to be the same way.

2.) You Eat an Elephant One Bite at a Time.

This was one of those weird out of the blue thoughts that instantly calmed me down. There’s a lot of crazy wrapped around the New Year. You are expected to go out, which for a closet introvert like me is the last thing I usually want to do. You are expected to make resolutions which puts pressure on you to follow through with those resolutions and talk about them and then feel bad when they fail. The fact you’re even having to think about the year in such a grand scope primes the mind for anxiety.

You can’t control what’s going on a year from now…and bad things happen. So do good things however, and all you have to do is your best for the next 24 hours. Isn’t that nice to know? In fact, if the next 24 hours seems too big,  remember that 8 hours of that 24 is hopefully given to sleep so you don’t have to worry about that either. You really only have to worry about the next hour really. In fact, most of our days if you really think about them are pretty boring. There’s eating, bathroom breaks, commutes, showers….most of the drama happens in your head, but even that has to end sometimes so you can sleep.

Controlling one’s thoughts is something I may write about later when I figure that out, but what I’m trying to say is that it helps if you don’t see the year as this big scary thing…it’s just one day at a time.

3.) Who Do You Think You Are?

I love watching Ru Paul’s Drag Race. I like watching it for a lot of reasons; it’s funny. I like the creative outfits, I like the lip sync battles, and the inspiring stories of what these drag queens have gone through to get where they are. During one season, I was having a moment of real dark depression and I just thought “man, what I wouldn’t give to have a part of me that was happy and confident and just awesome.”

As a kid I watched Star Trek and they had a concept where there’s the normal you, and then a different you in a parallel universe. So on this particular day I sat down and wrote out what I think this alternative Heather would be like. What would she eat, what would she do with her spare time, what where her passions, what did her life look like? Writing about myself as though I was some alternative fictional character helped me figure out exactly what I wanted without feeling selfish, or thinking my wants were stupid.

It also helped me to see outside myself and visualize what I wanted my life to look like. Yes, we all want to eat better and trim off extra pounds during the year, but how often do we visualize what that would look like in a normal day? For me, I wanted to work on myself a lot. I wanted to meditate more. I wanted to paint more. I wanted to write more. As I wrote and wrote I began to see who I my ultimate self would be, and I liked her!

Take time to think about yourself on that level. If you have to name yourself something different to disconnect from where you’re at do it! If you want to just think of this as an “alternative self” do that! There’s no rules. Just take a second, in a quiet space, to really ask yourself what you want to get out of life.

4.) Make a Plan.

I realized it’s extremely easy for me to take the 24 hours I have for myself, plan out every hour of it, get discouraged and then spend the day sitting on my couch playing video games. I think that happens to a lot of people in the new year. They have all these goals that they want to start right on the first and then when there’s a change to plans everything falls through and they never recover.

For me I decided the best way to fix that was to make a week long chart. On the top of the chart, I put the days of the week. On the side I put all of the things I wanted to accomplish. THESE ARE NOT RESOLUTIONS!!!! These items I would “like” to accomplish during the week that will help me become like that alternative self I dreamed up, but it’s not going to crush my world if I miss something. On that side list I put things like “make a healthy menu, exercise, write in my journal, read part of a book, take a bath, etc. I wrote down all kinds of stuff. Then I used a little check mark to show what I did for that day. Oh, I wanted to plan a healthy menu on Monday but didn’t? That’s okay, I still have six more days to try. This allows room for failure, and as much as we don’t like failing, it happens, and it’s something you can accommodate. One sure fire way of failing is to think you have to have a complete personality change on January 1st as you wake up hung over, covered in glitter and wanting nothing more than to chow down on something fatty to help your sour tummy.

5.) Pinterest: Your Dream Board

Pinterest has been one of the biggest tools in helping me visualize my goals. You can visit my profile here. I have pinned everything from meals I want to cook, clothes I like, even what I want rooms in my future house to look like. One feature that I really love is their secret boards. These are ones that only you or people you allow can view. These are great because maybe you might not be comfortable posting how you want to lose weight, or underwear you like, or even that you’re trying to reinvent yourself. This way you can quietly pin things and topics that make you smile that only you have to know about.

6.) Remember that You are a Transitional Being.

This was a another big thing for me. Being depressed can make you believe that you are the worst person on the planet, and that nothing you do will be good, and nothing good will ever happen to you. Self-criticism is through the roof! I woke up in a bad mood one day and I just looked at myself and was like “Ugh, look at you…you are nowhere near where you want to be”, but then I had a thought that seemed to come from someone else, and that thought was “not yet”. It actually startled me, but it’s stuck ever since that day. Whenever I think critically of myself I seem to remember that whisper now. I’m not as healthy as I’d like to be….yet. I’m not the artistic business woman I want to be….yet. I am not where I want to be….yet.

The word “yet” reminds me that right now doesn’t mean forever. It gives me hope. It tells me that yeah, okay, fine, you’re not where you want to be, but that doesn’t mean you won’t ever reach your goals. It also puts the power back in my hands because “yet” makes me think about what I need to get there.

7.) Get Some Help

I’m so happy that more celebrities are talking about how they go to therapy. It takes away the stigma that it’s a place for crazy people. People have issues. No one is excluded. Even that super-happy-positive-appearing person you know has things that upset them that they try to not think about. I think it’s those issues though that lock us into certain ways of living that may not be what we want. I don’t think the person who is overweight is just lazy and wants to eat. I don’t think that the homeless person is a drunk or on drugs and doesn’t want to improve their situation. I think that people honestly want to do what they can for themselves, but “something” is holding them back.

For me, I lived in a really sheltered home. This meant that I wasn’t very confident. After my mother passed away I decided to go to grief counseling which was provided through her hospice. It helped tremendously. After I moved up here to Massachusetts, I continued to go to therapy because it helped me rebuild.

Therapists aren’t there to judge you, and there are all kinds too and some will even have sessions over the phone or through text! Some suggest medication, some do not, and there’s all kinds of therapy styles to chose from. Gone are the days of laying on a lounge chair and talking about your dreams and relationship with your mother…unless that’s what you want to do! They are there to figure out where you are having trouble becoming that person you want to be. Sniffing down what is holding you back may not always be fun, but it’s like digging out a splinter. Once the nasty part is over you can heal and become even stronger. If you feel you would benefit from therapy, then I suggest researching the different types and finding a therapist that fits that style.

8.) Cut out People that Don’t Support You.

I had a very difficult time understanding that I was allowed to have dreams that my family thought were stupid. As a kid I loved writing and doing art. My parents were both artists and I can still remember my father telling me “Don’t you want a real job, where you can actually pay your bills?” I shunned that side of me for a really long time or did art with the idea of “well, this isn’t really worth doing seriously”. The same happened with writing. I loved writing, but the idea of actually being a writer seemed irresponsible.

Moving up to Massachusetts scared me at first. I didn’t know anyone up here except my husband. The distance however was a blessing. With the support of a therapist and my man, I was able to pursue art and writing and put in extra time to finding and doing what makes me happy.

My block list on a lot of my social media’s is a mile long, but the freedom it affords to just be who you are without the peanut gallery chiming in is priceless.

9.) Don’t Miss the Small Accomplishments.

Sometimes our goals get in the way. I am in the process of writing a book. I’ve spent years on it editing and plot planning and just making it something I can be really proud of it. There have been several times where I just wanted to delete it because “It’s not perfect”. I would completely miss the part of “Oh my god I wrote a book! Yeah it’s not perfect and still needs editing, but how many people have actually sat down and written a book?”. Celebrate your little victories. If you were only able to cook one healthy meal this week, GOOD!!!! There are tons of people who didn’t do that. You may not look like a model, but you lost a pound? GOOD!!!! Some people have gained weight! Any movement, no matter how small towards your goal is better than staying where you are and worlds better than going backwards.

10.) There is ALWAYS Someone Worse Off and It can Always get Better

A few years ago: My mother was dying of a terminally ill disease. I couldn’t get work because I was helping to care for her which meant my newlywed husband and I were extremely poor. We could barely make rent, our fridge was often empty, and we would have been homeless without the generosity of a very good friend of ours who let us rent a room in his house and another who sold us his car for $1,000.

For as bad as it was though, I remember hearing the phrase “There’s someone always worse off”. Now at the time, I thought that person was me, but looking back there are some key things that I took for granted. I had a place to live. There was clean water coming out of the faucets for us to drink if we wanted. We had electricity. There are people in third world countries don’t have those simple things. They may have to walk to get water. They may not have electricity, or even public transit to rely on. There are those who have everything they own in a few bags perhaps and have to rely on others to help them get a meal.

The other half of this statement is also true and I put them side by side because for me in my life it was really that sudden. My mother eventually passed on and I became estranged, but that opened up the freedom for my husband and I to consider leaving where we had grown up and searching for better things. In the span of one month, he ended up getting a fantastic job with a start up company in Boston which paid him double than what he was getting, and I was able to for the first time in my life find who I was and explore what makes me happy.

No matter how sad your situation might be right now, remember it can change very suddenly and for the better. Take hope, do your best, and get ready for good things, because they can be just around the corner.

If you have any other ideas on what to do to have a successful new year, or if you just would like to talk about what your goals are for 2017, please leave a comment below! Thanks for reading!

 

Relic of the Past

 

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Title: Relic of the Past
Materials: Acrylic on textured board
Dimensions: Original is 12 inches high by 9 inches wide. (though print sizes may be varied)
Prints on: Etsy

This was my first attempt at painting in a semi realistic style and took care to notice shadows, highlights and dimensions.

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The first sketch of my beloved Nintendo GameBoy Pocket

I decided to paint my first personal gaming console. My parents were very anti video games, and so it was a wonderful surprise to get this Gameboy Pocket for Christmas one year and in my favorite color of red too! I enjoyed many wonderful hours playing with it. As a child I often played Star Wars: Empire Strikes Back which for some reason wouldn’t allow me to save and the batteries would die before I could reach the ending. I went to PAX East this year (a gamer conference) and I made sure to pick up some new games for it (like Frogger and Pac-Man). When I’m feeling nostalgic I usually fire this up, and play through some Tetris, or Mario Land 2: Six Golden Coins. The more amazing modern technology becomes, it’s nice to have this relic of my past to enjoy. There’s something about it’s green/silver screen that has a beauty all of it’s own.

First layer of that beautiful red color.
First layer of that beautiful red color.

The process of the painting was fun. I took very careful measurements of the GameBoy and transferred them on to my board. Once I was done painting the body I actually put my GameBoy on top of the drawing so I could see where the shadows naturally fell on the board to give it a 3D look. Probably the most fun was trying to come up with a way to mimic the classic screen which I ended up painting with a green-grey paint I mixed up and covering it with a fine film of silver.

Needing some edge clean up and the display color, but so far so good.
Needing some edge clean up and the display color, but so far so good.

If you are interested in purchasing a print of this please visit my store on Etsy

Jack Daniel’s Smoky Bacon Mac and Cheese

I’ve been wanting to cook this recipe for the last month and I finally got a chance to last night. Let me warn you ahead of time, this meal is dense. It says on the recipe that it serves four and I could barely put a dent in my serving. To be honest it probably serves more like six. I will include the calorie counts for both a four portion meal and a six portion, for those of you who just want to have an idea of how much this is (but I promise you won’t like the results).

I got this recipe from Pinterest, but you can find it as well as some really nice pics on the site The Slow Roasted Italian.

Jack Daniel’s Smoky Bacon Mac and Cheese:

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Ingredients:

½ tsp salt (and don’t forget to salt the pasta water.)
12 oz Hickory smoked peppered bacon, uncooked
2 Tbsp unsalted butter
½ cup Jack Daniel’s Whiskey
½ cup chicken broth
¼ cup all-purpose flour
½ teaspoon smoked paprika ( I didn’t have any smoked paprika and just used the regular kind)
1 teaspoon garlic powder
½ teaspoon New Mexico chili powder ( I also didn’t have any of this specific chili powder, so I just used the regular kind)
1 tablespoon chili pepper paste
½ tablespoon Worcestershire sauce
2 cups milk
4 ounces extra sharp cheddar (white), shredded
2 ounces smoked provolone cheese, shredded
2 ounces Asiago cheese, shredded
8 oz dry elbow pasta
croutons (garnish)

Directions:

1.) Prep the ingredients. I’ve found that measuring everything ahead of time and getting it all set up, makes for a much more fun cooking experience.

2.) Bring a large pot of  water to a boil over high heat. Once it boils, add some salt and the pasta. Cook uncovered to al dente (has a bite to it). Drain and set aside.

3.) Meanwhile warm a large 12” skillet over medium-high heat. Using clean kitchen shears cut bacon into bite size pieces over the skillet and let them to fall into the pan. Stir occasionally as needed. Cook until crisp.

4.) While the bacon is cooking, (f you haven’t done so already) shred (or chop up) cheeses and prepare remaining ingredients.

5.) Once bacon is cooked through, remove bacon to a bowl with a slotted spoon. Reserve 2 tablespoons of bacon drippings and discard the rest. Wipe the side of the skillet to avoid flame ups.

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6.) Pour reserved bacon drippings back into the skillet over medium heat and add butter. Once melted add flour and whisk to combine. Add spices, chili paste, Worcestershire, whiskey and chicken broth. Whisk to combine. Allow to come to a bubble for 3 minutes, whisking occasionally to help pick up the bits on the bottom of the pan. Add milk. Whisk to combine. Bring back to a bubble and add cheeses.  Stir until cheese is melted and smooth.

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7.) Add pasta to sauce and stir to combine. Add bacon. Cook pasta in sauce for 5 minutes over medium heat until sauce thickens and the pasta has a chance to absorb some of the sauce.

Sprinkle with croutons, if desired. Because this sauce is so thick and rich, I found that the croutons bring a much needed crunch to the dish.

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Enjoy!

I got the calorie counts by putting the recipe into the My Fitness Pal recipe maker:

For 4 servings it’s roughly 759 calories for each individual serving.

For 6 servings it’s roughly 506 calories for each individual serving.

 

Alton Brown’s Bourbon Pecan Pie Recipe

I am a long time fan of Alton Brown. He doesn’t just throw a recipe at you, but rather takes the time to educate you about the way food works and explain exactly happens when you do certain things to your food. So when I was looking for a new dessert to try and make I found his Alton Brown’s Bourbon Pecan Pie Recipe on the Foodnetwork.com website. I served it actually yesterday for my Halloween party that I threw, but it is a wonderful fall dessert and easy to make in comparison to other things I’ve cooked. If you have any questions please feel free to drop me a line and I’ll do my best to answer. I hope you enjoy it.

Alton Brown’s Bourbon Pecan Pie Recipe:

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Crust:
4 tablespoons unsalted butter, cubed
3 1/2 ounces pecan halves or pieces
6 ounces all-purpose flour, plus extra for rolling
1/2 teaspoon kosher salt
2 tablespoons ice water
2 tablespoons bourbon, chilled
Filling: Pecanpiefilling3 large eggs
3 1/2 ounces sugar
6 ounces golden syrup
4 tablespoons unsalted butter, melted and cooled slightly
1 tablespoon bourbon
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
1/4 teaspoon kosher salt
8 ounces Spiced Pecans, recipe follows, coarsely chop 6 ounces and leave the remaining 2 ounces wholeDirections:To make the crust:
Chill the butter in the freezer for 15 minutes.
Pulse the pecans 6 to 7 times in a food processor or until finely ground. Add the flour and salt, and pulse an additional 4 to 5 times. Add the butter and pulse 6 to 7 times, until the texture looks mealy. Remove the lid of the food processor, add the water and bourbon, and pulse 5 to 6 times until the mixture holds together when squeezed and feels like dough. Transfer the dough to a gallon-sized zip-top bag, squeeze together until it forms a ball, then press into a rounded disk and refrigerate for 30 minutes.
To make the syrup which will be come the filling of your pie:
Whisk the eggs, sugar, golden syrup, butter, bourbon, vanilla and salt together until combined. Set aside.
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Heat the oven to 350 degrees F.
Remove the dough from the refrigerator. Cut along two sides of the zip-top bag, open the bag to expose the dough and sprinkle both sides very lightly with flour. Cover with the bag and roll out with a rolling pin to an 11-inch circle. Open the bag again, and sprinkle the top of the dough with flour. Place the dough into a 9 1/2 to 10-inch tart pan that is 2 inches deep. Gently press the dough into the sides of the pan, crimping and trimming the edges as necessary.  **While the directions say to roll out the dough with a rolling pin inside the bag, I just found it easier to take the dough out of the bag and press it into the pie pan.**Evenly sprinkle the 6 ounces of chopped pecans in the crust and pour the filling on top. Bake for 20 minutes. Place the remaining 2 ounces of whole pecans in a border on the edge of the filling. Bake 10 minutes, until the center of the pie should reach 200 degrees F, and a skewer inserted in the center comes out clean. Cool on a cooling rack to room temperature before serving, 3 1/2 to 4 hours.
This is basically the same recipe you can find on food network arranged in such a way I felt it flowed better and I added my own two cents.
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If you’d like to see the original recipe please visit the Food Network site and search for Alton Brown’s Bourbon Pecan Pie recipe, or click here.
I also managed to find this fun clip from the actual Good Eats show on how to make this exact recipe! Check it out here.

Cafe Fleuri and their Amazing Chocolate Bar

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I’ve been living in Massachusetts for a few years now, and have done a lot of the touristy things. I’ve gone to Samuel Adams Brewery, I’ve been to the top of the Prudential Center, I’ve hung out in the Common and ice skated at Frog Pond.. but I keep my ear low to the ground for things that the average vacationer might miss and the locals keep quiet about . So while I was watching the Travel Channel, they had a “best places to eat” episode on, and one of the places they rated fairly high in terms of places to go for a sweet tooth was Cafe Fleuri’s Chocolate Bar. I saw this a few years ago, and I’ve been dying to see if all the hype really matched what I had seen on TV. Interestingly enough, while there are plenty of Yelp reviews about the place (which are mixed and made me at times wonder if the Yelpers where raised in Willy Wonka’s Chocolate Factory due to their snobbery), no one had actually taken the time to really write an article about it or go into detail about the experience which made me wonder even more what this place was like. Stories about a dessert buffet with all you can eat chocolate delights seemed kind of on the crazy side. So I put it in the back of my mind till this last weekend….

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This is the 1980’s themed table
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This is the 1990’s inspired table.

 

I may have stated before, October is my birthday month and so my husband decided that for my birthday he was going to take me to this mystical Mecca of culinary delights. First, let me share with you why this is so incredibly special, besides the ability to stuff your face with exquisitely created pieces of dessert.  Cafe Fleuri is part of the Langham hotel which is located in downtown Boston’s financial district. Like some sort of crazy magical carnival that sweeps in at some point and then disappears without a trace, the Chocolate Bar only runs from September of 2013 through June 2014 and then returns the following year. It’s also not an all week thing. The Chocolate Bar is only open on Saturdays for four hours. Every year, the chefs pick a theme to decorate their chocolates to, and this year was the celebration of their 25th anniversary. Because of this, the inspirations were drawn from favorites from the 1980’s, 1990’s, 2010, and hopes for the future. Each featured time had it’s own table of treats which included cakes, bonbons, mousse, puddings, and other assorted delectables. In addition to that, there were several other stations such as a crepe station, an ice cream station which allows you to pick and chose what you would like mixed into your ice cream, a chocolate fountain, and a chocolate soup station featuring dark and milk chocolate soup.

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Hopes and dreams for the future.
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Inspirations from 2010.

 

 

 

 

 

 

I felt that there were not nearly enough pictures of specific items, so I decided to take pictures of the plates I got and talk about what was actually there to eat (you can find larger pictures on my Pinterest), and I have also included a  “game plan”  at the bottom of this post that I would suggest to those going to follow in order to maximize the amount of chocolate you can enjoy. Though if you are really looking to pack it away I suggest looking up how to be a Competitive Eater.

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Plate one

For my first plate I followed the advice that I heard on the Travel Channel which is to chose the things you find most interesting first (because you might not have room to later). So for this plate I chose a small cup of milk chocolate soup which interestingly enough Bostoncreampiedid not taste like the cup of hot chocolate I was expecting. It was slightly salty and brought out very savory parts of the chocolate. I have to admit…the first plate I loaded with a few familiar things and then hesitantly with a few new things I’d never seen before. On my actual plate I got the following: The thing in the glass is a Tiramisu inspired by the 1980’s table, The square cake with a raspberry to the right of the Tiramisu is a tiny Boston Creme Pie also inspired by the 1980’s, Then to the left of that is another fluffy thing with what looks like bacon on top…good news…it actually IS BACON! This was a fantastic treat at the 2010 inspiration table called a”Banana Bacon Tart”. Imagine the taste of a toasted marshmallow wrapped around a piece BananaBaconTartof banana and the banana flavored pudding with the saltiness of freakn’ BACON on top, like a cherry on an ice cream Sundae. It was so good I could have had five of them, but there is a temptation one must resist…it is a trap. Don’t go back for seconds of the same item. It is folly. One does not simply eat a two pieces of the same dessert at the chocolate bar and expect the stomach to be forgiving of this flagrant expression of gluttony. If you have more than one of something it will take up valuable space in the food purse known as your stomach and this is NOT good…Lastly the strange cone thing at the far left of my plate was described as Dark Chocolate and Malted Milk Powder…I was weary of this one to be honest. I had flash backs of times when I hadn’t stirred my Swiss Miss chocolate powder coco mix enough and that first sip usually meant getting blasted in the face by chocolate powder which I’m sure even now coats some small spot of my lungs. But to my very pleasant surprise, the chocolate powder instantly turns into a kind of mousse thus preventing the urge to smuggle it into a bathroom to snort off a toilet seat like the addict one has to be in order to go to a place like this. The only thing I can guess is that the chefs might have possibly removed all liquid from the chocolate, which creates a fine dust, and then as it touches your mouth, it’s rehydrated.

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Plate 2

By the end of the first plate I could feel my body reacting to the sugar. My heart beat wildly in my chest, I’m sure my eyes were probably dilated. The top 40 that the DJ was spinning sounded really good…even the crappy songs that Taylor Swift put out. Everything was almost too perfect, nothing was wrong with the world. veganchocolatemousseThe few kids that were behaving nicely while I was normal, now seemed like perfect little angels, the crystal in the chandeliers seemed to be sparkling only for me. IT WAS ALL SO BEAUTIFUL! So now on the beginning of this chocolate high, I decided I’m going to get a bit more adventurous. I decided to go to the much talked about crepe bar! So I get a new plate and go up to this dealer of chocolate and she asks me what I want, so casually…she’s seen so many like me in this crazy position. I’m thinking she knew at this point she could make the crappiest crepe the world has ever seen and I’d still eat it because in my over chocolate pleasured brain, everything tastes good! I decided to get a banana, rum and chocolate thing on a chocolate crepe…It was amazing. I was extremely happy that I had brought my husband with me at this point because there in lies the second rule of thumb. milkchocolatecremebruleeShare the big stuff…Remember stomach room is as rare and needed as a cheap, decently sized apartment overlooking Times Square. You have to have the mindset that only the finest pieces can occupy the free crannies of your gut…There isn’t room any more for the lowly bonbon and a crepe is like an entire family complete with three kids, two cats, a dog and a deranged grandparent all wanting to move into a two bedroom apartment- It’s just not going to happen. Pace yourself and share. Along with my crepe I decided to be “healthy” and get something with fruit on top so I sauntered back to my table with a chocolate mousse topped with fruit which I also split with my man who in turn shared half of his chocolate creme brulee with me. This is one of the many reasons I love him…

At the end of plate two, what I was convinced wouldn’t happen, did…it was the dreaded sugar plateau. It’s like that sudden realization you have before you get cookiesnmilkreally drunk that this is a turning point…You’re happy now, but if you have another drink it could lead to you waking up dressed as a lion, lying on the floor surrounded by glitter, cheetos, and dirty gross people who you hope to God are actually several clones of Ke$ha and not the dirty gross random people they actually are…It’s at this point you discover the purpose for the chips and salted nuts and pretzel sticks that they have at the chocolate dipping fountain…You need something salty. The mere thought of chocolate at this point might even cause the most seasoned dessert fanatics to gag a little, but Cafe Fleuri has anticipated this, and just as chocolate can make you feel better after you’ve come across a Dementor….chips and pretzels can make you feel better after you’ve had too much chocolate.

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Pate Choux Swan with Pastry Cream

After getting a second wind from the salty snacks you’re good to go back out into the fray…Now is the time for going for those things you never thought you’d be brave enough to try. My husband suggested that I get Fruit Pearls with Fruit FruitpearlswithfruitglazeGlaze which came in these cute, one bite sized spoons. The pearls seemed to bounce around your mouth mixing with the light chocolate sauce that was hidden in the bottom it was really good. I also got this Pate Choux Swan with Pastry Cream. The artistic value of this piece alone tempted me to take it home and put it on my mantle above my non-working fireplace…but this, like a rainbow, was to be enjoyed in the moment leaving only the memory of it’s crispy delicate pastry, filled with the best frosting you’ve ever tasted to linger in your mind forever…At this point too, the beer goggle effect started to take place…in the beginning I would have never stooped so low as to munch on something as Carnie-inspired as the pink cotton candy that sat in the corner like the reject of a high school dance….nor would I have glanced at anything from the chocolate fountain…but now, with my mind a little crazy and my stomach starting to ache, it became a test of endurance…it was no longer about the chocolate. It’s now about how much sugar could I pack within myself before falling into a sugar induced coma. So I devoured this third plate.

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Plate 4.

It’s at this point where you realize that you’ve only tried perhaps half of the things at this buffet and you are completely out of room…This fourth and final trip is about finding the smallest things to pack up that small amount of space coconutricepuddingyou think you might have….but probably don’t.  For this I opted for a Pecan Tart with Bourbon…It was delicious… but even this small guy I had to split with my husband. In turn I helped him by eating half of his rice pudding which made me want to rename the Cozy Shack snack puddings I have at home to Crappy Shack. There was some sort of lemon white chocolate thing I had a nibble of which I wasn’t incredibly impressed with, and there…sitting on my plate was the shining example of where my head was at…It was a thick piece of rice crispy and marshmallow treat….It was the big fat thing that I was too wasted on chocolate to care about. Similar to turning over only to find some heinous hambeast is laying in bed next to you, and wondering at what moment you thought it was a good idea to bring them home…this was that moment, and this rice crispy treat was the symbol of my ultimate lack of judgment…I had lost my senses long ago, and now the best course of action was to go home.

But this is another thing you must not do. Do not succumb to the sweet desire to curl up and hold your aching paunch till sleep relieves you of consciousness. It’s best at this point, defeated by chocolate, whipped if you will by deserttablethe whipped cream, that you drag your sorry self out to the curb like a bum where you can cry in sweet joyful bloated pain and contemplate the events in your life that have lead you to this moment. I suggest you take a stroll through the Common, waddle if you must in hopes that the gentle rocking of each foot fall will perhaps help pack down your sugary mistake, and relieve your stomach ache. You will at this point probably contemplate living as a monk…far from the temptations of chocolate, perhaps tiramisuvarrinerehab….but no…deep in your mind, even while you break out in the sugar sweats as another wave of it flows through your veins, you know you’ll be back. Chocolate is your vice…Your nose will soon be smearing up the glass at the local Godiva…You’ll be eyeing the cheap dirty Hershey bars lining the checkout counters at grocery stores. But you’re also wiser now…The price of $42 dollars to go back to that nirvana of chocolate discourages weekly visits and that’s probably for the best. Perhaps this is why there are no other articles written about Cafe Fleuri’s Chocolate Bar…one would have to admit they have a problem, that might even require several years of counseling and shock therapy.

So go my friends, and as a veteran let me leave you with these words of wisdom:

1.) DO NOT EAT BREAKFAST BEFORE YOU GO!!!!!: Seriously, if you eat breakfast you will have a hard time putting even a little dent in that place.

2.) Check your diet at the door: This is no place to be counting calories…If you insist on counting calories you might find that all you can allow yourself is a bon bon….and you can do better….and you deserve more.

3.) Just like at a dance, go for the good looking pieces first, and work your way down to the wall flowers.

4.) If you experience a chocolate lag, reboot with something salty.

5.) Bring a friend…it doesn’t even have to really be a friend because honestly you’re just using these people so you don’t look like a jerk throwing out amazing food…just make sure it’s someone with a bigger stomach than yourself so you can split with them.

6.) Try not to double up… have two different things instead of two of the same.

7.) Walk it out. Walking might help your tummy settle a little and also help manage the sugar jitters you will inevitably be left with.

8.) Pepto Bismol works miracles.

If you are interested in learning even more about this please visit The Cafe Fleuri Chocolate Bar information page. Also please feel free to check out this awesome Travel Channel video about this amazing place.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Vintage Horror Movie Review: Army of Darkness (1992)

Army_of_Darkness_posterEvery Halloween I decorate my house, dress up, break out the candy, and put on Army of Darkness. Out of all the Evil Dead movies, this happens to be my favorite. It really has everything from corny catch phrases, zombies, and of course Bruce Campbell.

Army of Darkness starts of where Evil Dead left off. Ash Williams is sucked through a vortex and lands sometime during the middle ages. He is quickly captured by King Arthur and his knights and taken as prisoner. They end up throwing him in a pit to be killed by what they call a “Deadite” which is basically this zombie, monster thing. Ash battles him and the kings wise man gives him back his chainsaw arm attachment and his gun (otherwise known as his Boom stick). He wants nothing more than to return to his own time period but in order to do that he has to get the Necronomicon Ex-Mortis, the same one that gave him so much trouble in Evil Dead 2. He manages to rebuild his hand using scraps of metal and bids farewell to a woman named Sheila who has fallen in love with him.armyofdarknessbdcap3 He takes his horse and rides in search of the book.

During his trip he is pursued by an evil force and he seeks shelter in a large windmill. There’s a lot of strange things that happen inside the windmill. One of which is that Ash shatters a mirror and small little reflections himself start running around. He tries his best to kill them, but one of them manages to jump down his throat and despite drinking boiling water (which is actually funnier than it sounds) it lives and starts making a clone of Ash. So now there’s a “good” Ash, and a “Bad” Ash. Eventually “Good” Ash manages to kill his clone and buries him. However when Ash messes up the magic words he’s suppose to say when he takes the Necronomicon he raises an army of Deadites including his buried evil self who inevitably leads the Deadites to attack King Arthur and his men.

siamesetwinbruceI think some of my most favorite scenes is when Ash is about to kiss Sheila. It’s so romantic, and then he says “Give me some sugar baby.” It ruins the moment in the best way, because it’s so over the top cheesy romantic. “Shop Smart. Shop S-Mart.” is another line from the movie that is a classic and again hysterical. This movie is probably the most lighthearted and genuinely funny of the two. There’s still some gore and a lot of dead people, but there’s so much slap stick humor that someone who wouldn’t normally watch scary films would really enjoy this. Hail to the King baby!

How to: Sculpt a Pumpkin

So for the last few years I’ve been watching Halloween Wars on the Food Network. It combines two of my favorite hobbies which is cooking and art. One of the things they do that I’ve been wanting to try for years is pumpkin sculpting. Pumpkin sculpting is much different than carving. Pumpkin carving conjures up images of the traditional toothy grinned pumpkins that you would see on anyone’s door stop. Pumpkin sculpting however is a completely different animal.

As I’ve stated before I’ve never had formal art training, my parents were artists and I guess I just come by it naturally. I’ve always wanted to learn how to sculpt. I watch shows like Face Off and I’m completely amazed by the artistic talents the contestants have when it comes to sculpting. However, on the show Halloween Wars they’ve recently had a fantastic artist who sculpts pumpkins and gourds. Ray Villafane was an art teacher for a high school for a number of years until he decided to go full time with his sculpting talents. After looking through his portfolio I got inspired to try my hand at this and since pumpkins are plentiful at the moment what better time than this to try? I went out and bought a few pumpkins and some carving supplies and sat down to try my hand at this.

If you would like to try, here are the things you might need:

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1.) You will need a pumpkin (obviously): You don’t need to choose a big one, but I wouldn’t choose one of the miniature pumpkins either. I believe the one I chose is called a sugar baby.  I cut a hole in the bottom to gut it so that I could keep the stem attached. Also it’s easier to illuminate the pumpkin using Christmas lights if you have them fed through the bottom where you can easily have the cord coming from the bottom rather than the top.

2.) Knives: I used the bigger knife to cut a hole in the bottom, and the smaller paring knife for the larger detailed pieces.

3.) Sculpting / Carving Tools: This can be a little hard to find. I actually bought my set at Michaels arts and crafts store in the clay section. It’s a little weird though because a pumpkins texture is a cross between clay and wood. You’re definitely going to want a set that has a “ribbon” tool. This tool will make it very easy to smooth out the carved lines and create flat surfaces.

4.) Potato Peeler: This makes taking that top hard layer of the pumpkin off. It will cut your carving time in half!

5.) A Bowl for the Seeds: One of the rewards of gutting a pumpkin would be baking the seeds. Now this post isn’t really about baking pumpkin seeds but I’ll give you quick instructions on how.

6.) A Surface Covering: This craft can get messy so it’s good to have something covering the surface. For this I used an open paper bag.

So first before you start anything, you want to gut your pumpkin. As stated above, I cut from the bottom so that it’s a bit easier to light. If you remove the seeds mix them with a about 2 or 3 tablespoons of olive oil, and salt and bake for around 40 minutes at 300 degrees.

pumpkin2In traditional pumpkin carving you usually sketch out what you want to cut. This is a bit more difficult to do with pumpkin sculpting since there are so many layers and things to take into consideration. I found that it was best to take a moment to really look at the pumpkin and consider what kind of face would fit the pumpkin, rather than making the pumpkin fit the face. Once you have an idea, pick up your potato peeler and take off that first thick dark orange layer.

Once that top layer is gone, take your paring knife and lightly sketch out what you think the face should look like. If you aren’t going to be sculpting the eyes, then make sure you cut them out before you start doing and real detailed cutting.

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After you kind of sketch it out with your paring knife, start carving out the features. This is easier said than done; I’ll be honest. I have issues drawing noses and I had a lot of trouble sculpting a nose. I actually found this You Tube video to be extremely helpful. Even though the face wasn’t exactly like how I was doing mine it helped show me how to shape certain parts like the nose or cheeks. Once you have your sketch done, it’s a matter of removing layers. This was a little weird though because I’ve played with clay before and for me it’s about adding clay to create the things you want to see. With pumpkin sculpting it’s really about taking away. Another thing I’m honestly still getting used to is the depth of the pumpkin skin. It’s okay to dig deep for deep lines and creases.

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 The old saying “If at first you don’t succeed- try, try again” applies here. Truthfully my first attempt at pumpkin sculpting was really bad. This pumpkin was actually my second attempt, so perhaps it was just a matter of getting used to the tools and seeing how they work. Understand that this is something that will take practice. But first and foremost, it should be fun. If you find yourself getting frustrated, take a break, let your eyes rest, look at some guides online to help, and then come back and try again. I’ve also found that when dealing with cheeks or wrinkles that it helps to smile or make the face you’re going for in a mirror. For the wrinkles, try cutting a small “v” and then rounding the edges out so it’s not so “carved” looking. In the end here’s how my pumpkin turned out. It’s a far cry from Mr. Villafane’s pumpkins, but I think it looks happy enough. 🙂

Oh and as an extra tip, I loved how this guy turned out so much I decided to keep him in my house….BIG MISTAKE….Pumpkins are wild creatures and thus enjoy being outside in the open air. Poor Bob as I so affectionately named him decided to grow a goatee of mold about four days into his stay. I didn’t take a picture of this, as it was just too disturbing and my heart was just too broken. Please enjoy these beautiful pictures in loving memory of Bob. *sniffle* He’s….just so…happy…..T_T.

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In Loving Memory of Bob as he inspired its design. 🙁

How To Make a Vintage Halloween Garland

October has to be one of my favorite months next to December. The air starts getting cool and you get to break out all those great fall and winter clothes that you had packed away (or in my case laying on the basement floor waiting to be washed. -_- don’t judge me bro.)

As a kid I was taught that Halloween was an evil holiday and my family didn’t celebrate it. It kind of made me sad because my birthday lands during the month of October and for a while I hated that it was during such an “evil and scary” month. Having moved out and developed a brain of my own, I’ve found that holidays are really what you make of it. While I’m sure there are some less than savory activities performed during this month, I can chose how I wish to celebrate it. So I’ve really started to enjoy the holiday for what it really is….a time to get a sugar high and dress up….that’s it. I’m also a sucker for decorating for the holidays, except I don’t have a lot of cash so I’ll try to make whatever item I want and if I fail miserably then I’ll go out and buy it. I saw several versions of “vintage” Halloween garlands except they were quite pricey…And never one to pass up a challenge I decided I would try to make my own. Obviously it was a win, otherwise I wouldn’t be sharing how to make such cool garland with you guys. So here’s how to make your very own for Halloween!

You Will Need:

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1.) Some fun Halloween paper. I got “The Spooky Time Stack” and the “Halloween and Fall Stack“. The Spooky Time Stack is made of a heavy card stock and the Halloween and Fall Stack is made out of a more regular paper.

2.) Black Yarn

3.) Glue (any kind is good as long as it’s made for paper.)

4.) A couple of sheet white paper

5.) A pen

6.) Scissors

7.) A ruler

How To Make Vintage Halloween Garland:

steps1.) The first thing you’ll want to do is make a lettering that is large enough to read. If you want to make your own lettering like I did you might want to use the ruler to make sure all the letters are the same size. For my sketches, I made each letter about four inches high. The font is really up to you. You can use a very straightforward design or you can create a kind of crazy artistic kind like I did. Sketch whatever phrase or letters you’ll be using on the white paper and cut them out. These will become stencils for you to use.

2.) Take the stencil letters and put them on another white sheet of paper. These will tell you how large to make your triangles and other shapes. You want to make sure that the letters fit on the “flags” you make. I’ve cut out triangle pieces for the “Happy” part, and these weird squares with the corners cut out for the “Halloween” part. You might also want to make another mini triangle  to fit onto the large one so that you can add more contrasting colors.

cutouts3.) Once you have all the stencil cut out start picking out papers you’d like to use. Be sure to use your stencils on the back sides of the paper. That way the marks that your pen or pencil make won’t be visible on the front of your garland. Also be aware of readability. I did all the letters in a textured black paper, however the triangles and the strange squares are really up to you. I just suggest that if you pick a really crazy background for the large triangle or square, that you pick a more subtle or complementary paper for the smaller triangle or square, one that will really pop out the black letters.

layered4.) If you have an X-acto knife now would be the time to use it especially if your design is complicated. I sadly do not have one of these so I just cut very carefully with scissors. Once you have everything cut out, it’s time to put it all together. Take a big triangle and glue a smaller triangle to it. Once that is dry glue the letter to it. If you’ve used cardstock you might notice a bowing or bending of the paper. Don’t worry. Once it dries, put it under something heavy like a stack of books to get it flattened out again. Do the same thing to the square pieces.

tabs5.) Once you have everything glued up, you want to cut out small thin tabs. I cut tabs that were about a quarter of an inch wide and about 4 inches long. You will want to glue these in such a way that they create little loops in the backs of your triangles and squares. Just glue one end to the triangle or square and then glue the other end to that…there should be a loop that you will use to string it up. Once all this is dry, thread some black yarn through the loops and you’re ready to hang them!

Extra Credit! Because that was just too easy for you!

After doing all the stuff above, if you still find yourself needing a little extra something here’s how to make fringe to go in between each letter. In order to do this all you will need is yarn, a hand (preferably your own), and scissors.

finishedtassel1.) Take the end of the yarn and start to wrap it loosely around your hand. I would wrap it around 20-25 times. Once you’re done wrapping it tie a string around the top part. Slide it off your hand. On the ends that are longer, cut them so that they are no longer loops but hanging free. This is the fringe part. Tie a little string from the top of the tied part to the string that holds your letters. I made one of these fringe things to go between each letter and at the ends.

After that you’re done. This can be hung in door ways or if you have a fireplace this is a perfect place to put it. 🙂

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And I Quote: “Happiness is Not Something Ready Made.”

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“Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.” – Dalai Lama XIV

We live in a very fast paced society. We want the fastest phones, we want to lose weight fast, we want to get rich fast, we want our food microwaved and sometimes when we’re really hungry even 1 minute can feel too long to wait for food. Many things are packaged to fit that instant gratification kind of life. Unfortunately Happiness is not one of those things.

It’s interesting how we cram our entire lives with things to do and places to go in the search for happiness. We get jobs in hopes we’ll become rich and that will bring about happiness. We buy homes outside of what we can’t afford because we believe it will make us happy. We run around taking our kids to all kinds of events and things so that they feel successful and happy. We even take medication in the hopes that it will somehow help us see happiness. But happiness is actually extremely simple.

I was raised in a family that believed that happiness, if you weren’t born with it, required that you had medication to really feel it. And while I don’t blame anyone for taking anti-depressants, some people don’t actually need them and only you as an individual can tell. For me, I became extremely stressed and anxious during my college years. There were a lot of reason for that, the big one was culture shock. I was ill prepared to be away on my own. My mother and father were on anti depressants and they assumed that it was now my turn…I was on anti depressants for a few years, and while I was on them I noticed that they didn’t really make me feel happy like I thought they would. I told my doctor and we tried different kinds of medications and dosages until he told me something that sent me on my journey for happiness…He said “I personally do not think you have a chemical imbalance…I think this is an emotional problem.” At first I remember thinking “Well, crap! Does that mean I’ll just never be happy? but then again, what was I expecting happiness to be? Was it rainbows and unicorns? Was it to wake up and have the birds sing to me? Was I suppose to feel like I was at Disney all the time? Was I even really happy when I went to Disney? And if that was what my definition of happiness was, then was it realistic and what would I have to do to get it?”

I took moving up here to Massachusetts as a chance to start over with my life and really search for what “happiness” really meant to me. I cut out a lot of negative people in my life, read a lot of books, talked to a lot of people, went to therapy, and in the end, I’ve found that happiness isn’t like a microwave dinner that you can just make in one minute and 30 seconds, it is like a relationship. It’s something that takes time to develop. You don’t just go up to a man or a woman and say “Hey I like you, let’s get married tonight!” I mean you could…but it probably won’t work out as well as you think. Happiness must be courted. It’s something that you might see with someone else, and you think. “I would love to learn more about that”. Then begins your search. You might try at first to run after happiness. You might stalk it from the distance, taking picture and putting it up on your bathroom mirror. You might read as much as you can about it, buy things to attract it, and visit website about it. You’ll cry over how badly you want it, and then get angry that it doesn’t seem to know you exist. But happiness is a simple relationship. You don’t need to do much to get it.

I met my husband on the second floor, in between classes, at a high school we both attended. For about a month I didn’t know his name and he didn’t know mine. We just wave and smiled at each other as we passed to go to class. Then one day, he decided to introduce himself. He didn’t throw his number in my face, or ask me out. He just told me his name, and that he liked the color of my hair back then (which was bright crazy red, kind of like how I recently dyed it.), and five years of dating and six years of marriage later we’re still in love. Happiness is kind of like that. You might see it over and over, and then one day it says hi to you. You could obsess over it, and stalk it but then you’re not really enjoying it. Happiness needs to be enjoyed when it’s around, and it’s not a relationship created day by day, but moment by moment…It starts small. I saw a butterfly land on a flower and that made me happy. I feel warm and well fed in this moment, I am happy and I’m thankful for that.Then gradually it grows. “I went on vacation to a really nice place and had a lot of fun and I felt happy.”

You’ll have days when you don’t feel happy any more but just like a lover who has gone away temporarily, you miss it but you have thankful memories until it returns again, and it will return because happiness is faithful and that’s one thing you need to trust. If all you do is focus with your head down and your hands in your pockets on the fact that you are not happy, you might not even notice it when it passes you in the hallway.